Chocolate against bitter life

After the call where he told me he wanted hear my voice, he called me again and said: "I'm coming to you. In a while I catch the train and in a hour I'll be there".
I sayok, I'll be to the station - cause I didn't wanna he knows where I live..

We meet us. When I saw his nice and smiling face again, I was glad. He came with me in a dvd shop, and we spent a while there to choose some movies. Then we went away.

I had no idea where I could go with him. I was without car, cause -for past experiences - I never tell again to a man that I have a car.

Anyway, we walk. It was pretty cold tonight, and so much wind. We satdown in a place, cause he wanted talk to me. He wanted know something that I could not explain on the phone. Then I tell him I don't date since 3 years, cause my last boyfriend was a "terrifing experience", bla bla bla. And finally I tell him: I just wanna sincerity from people. And then, maybe I can open a little my self. But I need time.

Then he says: "Well, for what you told me, I think it can be nothing between us".
"Why? Does it mean, you are like the person about which I told you?"
"No...cause you were sincere with me...and I know, if I am sincere with you right now, it could kill me".
"Ah...it means there's something that you have to tell me, and I don't know...something I should know...right?".
He doesn't answer.
"Ah, ok, let me guess: you're married!"
He doesn't answer.
"Oh yes, you're married! And you have children too, I suppose".
"No, I have no children".
"Ah, I see...and where's your wife? Santo Domingo?"
"No".
"What? You are married...with an Italian?? And since when?"
"Three years".
"I see. Oh no, I don't see, instead: are you together? Do you live together?"
"Yes".
"Well! Then! Why are you here?? Why do you search for me??"
"Cause I like you, I like everything of you".
"Oh man, come on...ok, let's go, it's enough".

While we are going away, he says:
"Then?"
"Then what?"
"What do you think?"
"What do I think? Hey, listen. You're wrong if you think I'll be your lover. Definitely. I don't do that, for respecting myself and respecting another woman like me. I don't wanna do to someone something that I won't desire for myself."
"But you're no more sixteen", he says.
"That's the reasone. I'm no more sixteen and I don't wanna behave like an idiot. No, I'm sorry".

I don't know why, but he was really surprised. Perhaps he thought I said -oh yes, it's wonderful!

"Then...I don't see you anymore?"
"I think so. We can be just friends".
"But I was sincere with you...why do you betrate this way with me?"
"I really appreciated your sincerity. But no, I don't like situations like that".
"You're killing me."
"You are killing yourself", I said.

While I was going away, I turn and see that he was still standing there, looking at me with his sad face. I turn the corner, and disappear.

Just a minute later, my cell rings. He.

"You make me feel so hurt...I like you so much....how can I do without you?"
"What a absurde situation! What can I answer??"

Later he called me again. From his house too, showing me his home number. Has he no fear I can call and his wife can answer???

"What's up?"
"Nothing...I just wanna hear you. Come to me".
"What? Are you picking on me??"
"No. Please, come to me. I'm alone".

"No. You're crazy"
"Come on".
"Do you really think I could come to you?? Are you realizing what are you saying??"
"Yes. I'm falling in love with you".
"No".

I'm sure he will call again.
Just cause I said: no.